Why?

Why do I keep trying? Why cant I stop? I keep fuckig chasing you! And I can't stop. I hate it. I keep praying and hoping you'll be there but no. Your not and you won't. So why do I care? It's all hopeless. I can't keep trying there is no point I. Trying when I'm the only one who wants this. I don't want to give up. I don't want to say goodbye. I don't wanna do this alone.