Heading down

Im on a nose dive down. To the bottom of this pit.I'm falling apart. My strength is failing. I just want to be beautiful. But I'm not.im sick. I've made my mistakes and I'm still making them. So let me fall apart and break. Let one more little action break me. Break this heart. Break these flood gates. Let It rain, let it pour. Let me fall. Let me hit bottom. Break me. Let me fall. And let me loose all hope. In more than just humanity but everything I believe in. Let me give up on sick hope. Let it go. Then cry alone. Then my lord reach your hand to me and comfort me. Than pick me up. Than give me the strength to climb these mountains. Let me become all yours. Lett me be your broken survivor.